The Way of Control

Keane Evans was someone most people looked over, not many really noticed him. There where places though, were anyone would spot him. The youthful circles, filled with drugs, alcohol and parties. There, everyone knew who he was. Did someone say Keane, then it was obvious that it was him and totally ridiculous if someone didn't know that. His younger brother, Freddie, had been forced to live in Keanes shadow, his legacy in his back all the time. Not that he complained. It gave him an unspoken respect, and an advantage among new people. Nobody wanted to start a fight with Keane, some did, but they where stupid or just knew him all to well. Nobody knew why that was. Nobody really knew him, only his closest friends. And even they didn't get him, understand him. He was... difficult.

”Kee, pass the smoke?” Freddie asked, waved with the hand in front of his face. ”Come on, it's not that hard.”

The smoke was all over in the little room, spreading it's addictive smell. The shed, which was Keane's, was on the backside of the Evans family's ordinary house in the outskirts of Des Moines, Iowa. The two boys easily disappeared amongst the hundreds of thousands residents, and with the parents working and the father cheating they had a lot of time to themselves.

”Get your own,” he muttered and drew a smoke.

”Yeah, just give me your dealers number and I will.”

”God, aren't you boring. Just find your own. It's a hunt. You'll love it, I sure did.” Keane licked his lips when he spoke, remember easy and clear about how he loved the hunt on everything. He didn't get why Freddie wasn't the same. He was one of those people who wanted it all, lying ready on his plate. Served with every possible supply. Keane liked to hunt and kill his supplies himself.

”Just give it,” he groaned, but stopped nagging when Keane ranted up a number. ”Hey, mind taking that one more time and slower?”

”Sure, why don't you get a pen while you're at it.”

”Relax, I can remember. Just repeat,” Freddie said and memorized the numbers his brother said, calmly and collected this time.

”I have to go. Miles is meeting me in Davenport, we've got some stuff to do,” Keane said and gave the half smoked joint to Freddie.

”Davenport? That's three hours away, what the hell are you doing there?”

”None of your fucking business. So just shut it.”

“Cool it. No harm done. Just go on your stupid meeting.”

“I will, and don't follow me this time,” Keane said and looked back at the time he caught his brother hiding in the trunk of his car. Covered in a tiny blanket in the middle of the freezing Iowa winter. He understood his brothers need to be like him, he was okay with it. More than that, he enjoyed seeing someone so fascinated by what he did. By what he could do. He could do lots of things, just not in front of Freddie. Clueless seventeen year old Freddie.

To finish reading chapter one, please follow this link to Goodreads, where it's posted;

http://www.goodreads.com/story/show/291088-the-way-of-control

Those times.

You know when you read a book, and then you get another book, and then you get lods of homework and even if you're halfway in both books you can't find the time to finish them?
Yeah, that's what's up with the no book reviews recently. I'm reading Possession  by Elana Johnson and Living Dead in Dallas by Charlaine Harris at the moment so reviews will be up soon.
Thanks for waiting. Why don't you read something while I'm reading Herr Arnes Penningar by Selma Lagerlöf for school, I can tell you I thinks it's boring.

LMAO!

This my dear friend Emilie said on Goodreads;


"HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA I just saw this on fb:

Oh god I laughed at this, someone asked Cassie on Tumblr why Will/Clary and Jace/Tessa would never work out. She said:

Tessa: Have you read this latest novel? It is my favorite!
Jace: No. I was polishing my latest gigantic weapon.
Tessa: A fine pastime for a gentleman, to be sure, but what do you do with your leisure time, sir?
Jace: More killing. My job is my hobby.
Tessa: I am not dressed for such activities.
Jace: My sister Isabelle could lend you an outfit.
Tessa: Is that your sister? I thought she was a prostitute.

Will: Ducks! Confound all ducks!
Clary: Are you all right?
Will: Lo, for a duck is man’s greatest enemy. You know I hate everyone, don’t you? Don’t get too close to me, or it will be your ruin.
Clary: You seem to be fond enough of that silvery-haired guy.
Will: My love for Jem passes your mere understanding.
Clary: So you’re gay, right? That’s okay.
Will: No one has ever suggested I was overly merry before. Have you read Tale of Two Cities?
Clary: For school. It was boring."

So funny, I think I died a bit! Will, you are amazing but ducks are awesome too.

Music while reading?

It's a different chocie for everybody. I read with music, but often slow music. You want to get into the book first and the music should just be something good, but in the background. Here's my list on Spotify:

Safe and Sound - Electric President

Insomnia - Electric President

If You Leave - Nada Surf

Ghost Town, Black Eyes, Wrapped in Piano Strings, Glory, Welcome Home, Son and A Pound of Flesh all by Radical Face.

Paradise Circus - Massive Attack

Poison in Your Mind - Powderfinger

Island in the Sun - Weezer

Delicate, Cannonball, Volcano and 9 Crimes all by Damien Rice.

Beautiful Day - U2

Darkening Sky - Peter Bradley Adams

And It's Alright - Peter Broderick

You Got Me All Wrong - Dios Malos

Hope you like them. I sure do.

Book review: Existence by Abbi Glines

As Goodread say;


What happens when you're stalked by Death? You fall in love with him, of course.
Pagan Moore doesn't cheat Death, but instead, falls in love with him.
Seventeen year old Pagan Moore has seen souls her entire life. Once she realized the strangers she often saw walking through walls were not visible to anyone else, she started ignoring them. If she didn't let them know she could see them, then they left her alone. Until she stepped out of her car the first day of school and saw an incredibly sexy guy lounging on a picnic table, watching her with an amused smirk on his face. Problem is, she knows he's dead.
Not only does he not go away when she ignores him, but he does something none of the others have ever done. He speaks. Pagan is fascinated by the soul. What she doesn't realize is that her appointed time to die is drawing near and the wickedly beautiful soul she is falling in love with is not a soul at all.
He is Death and he's about to break all the rules.

Personal Opinion;

Ah, I just love that line. 'He is Death and he's about to break all the rules'. It just screams major bad boy. And we all just love those. Okay. So the female lead. I like her. I can't help but like her because I see so much of myself in her. Her personality just shines, I love it. She is a good friend and she's understanding, kind, but she still have lods of jealousy packed up and she cried. I love her so much for that. When she got sad, she cried like a normal person would. She reacts like anyone would do. I also think the mentally insane topic in this book is really good. You just know how she feels. Doubting if she really is sane, because come on. Who sees souls? I would like too, if it meant Death comes with.

And the names. I just have to say I don't like the name Leif and I hate the name Dank. His name is Dank Walker and as my GR friends know, when I read it it becomes Dank Wanker. I guess it's because of my watching the first series of the british show Misfits. They can't help but say 'wanker' to everyone who pisses them off. I love Misfits. I'm sorry, it's a fussy review. I feel kind of fussy. Just to finish it off, it's a wonderful book! Death is just sooooo shagable, as my friend Jenn would say.

4/5

“You tempt me. I can't be tempted. I'm not made to be tempted, but you, Pagan Moore, you tempt me. From the moment I came for you I was drawn in. Everything about you.." One of his hands left my waist and moved up to gently caress my arm. "You make me crazy with need. With want. I didn't understand it at first. But now i know. It's your soul calling to me. Souls mean nothing to me. They aren't supposed to. But yours has become my obsession.”

- Death to Pagan.

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Book review: Amaranth by Rachael Wade

As Goodreads say;

Knowledge changes everything… 

Hoodoo-influenced Southern Louisiana seems like the perfect place for Camille to escape her abusive past and dysfunctional family. She doesn’t expect to fall in love with the handsome Gavin Devereaux and plummet into the world of Amaranth, a place of exile for reformed vampires. 

Wrestling to escape a deadly ex-boyfriend while giving Gavin a chance, Camille is confronted with decisions that threaten not only her life, but the lives of her inhuman friends she has come to love. Entangled in her friends’ quest for freedom, she dives into their realm and faces the threats of Amaranth’s ruler—the mother of all vampires—and her own inner demons. 

Now Camille must decide whether she will derail her life and make the ultimate sacrifice for the monsters that interrupted her bumpy path back to sanity—what she still wants so desperately—or escape with Gavin before it’s too late for both of them.


Personal Opinion:


This just wasn't a book for me. I had to drag myself through it and I wouldn't have finished it if it wasn't for a Goodreads thing. Don't get me wrong, this book was well written and it had a good story but I found myself wanting to stop reading and watch Smallville insted. It didn't capture me. And I don't really enjoy the type of story were the main character sees each other and becomes obsessed fall in love right away. This didn't do it for me. I usally remember single details of the book I just finished. I can recall every inportant event, but now it's just blanc.  It was just a ok read. Nothing more, not for me.


I think others will like this book. It's a love story, a I-love-you-you-love-me kind of thing. They're a cute couple, Gavin and Camille. But when I begun chapter 7 and it still didn't take a hold of me I gave up and just finished the book. I'm not going to read the second book, but I bet lots are. Don't be scared of by my review. This book is great, but not for me. And if some thinks I'm reading into the romance to much right now, it's because that's what I do. That's what I enjoy in a book that's not really enjoyable.


2.5/5


“Don't start that again. It's not my fault you don't have any masculine aprons." 
"That's because aprons aren't masculine, genius." 
"Don't make me have you for dinner, princess." 
"Whatever, Betty Crocker. Knock yourself out.” 

Decisions, decisions..

I made one today. I'm gonna read the Sookie Stackhouse series. Or as they are called more recently the True Blood series. I came to see that I needed to do it after speed-watching all four seasons of the tv show, and after falling hard for Eric Northman. Swedish viking vampire, fits me perfectly. As some of you know, I'm swedish myself so I understand when he has these little swedish mini-talks to his 'people' or to Godric. And stop reading now if you haven't read the first four books or seen the tv show, all episode. Spoiler coming up!

Eric and his problem in season 4. My favorite thing in the show, mainly because of my love for him. When he lost his memory and got all mushy and soft I only loved him more. It was so cute, and that was my turningpoint. Reading the books now, buying them tomorrow! Eric, you make my day.

Letter of the Week

Dear Thomas,


I didn't wish for it to end like this. It may have been my mother who put me in the world, taught me to talk, walk and behave myself. You had taught me to live. When I'd scream in the darkness of the night, pressed by the overwhelming feeling of solitude you'd lay down beside me. Letting your bodyheat ensure my soul and I fell asleep without a single vicious thought. When I'd climbed up the poisonous trees, surrounded myself with the twigs and the buds you took yourself up and called me down. I remember your hot breath tickling close to my ear when you murmured songs my mother used to sing. When I stumbled during the formation your arm had been there, lifting me off the ground within seconds. So quickly not even the ones next to us perceived the rule violation. I don't know what I'd do without you. Can you belivie that? Does it scare you to know that the reason I was still alive yesterday was you? When you see this, you will also be the reason for my death. If you're reading this, it means you weren't there. Not there to protect me and as much as I would love to know why, it's to late. You were to late, and you'll live with that in your memory the rest of your painful years. I'll be gone and you'll be to late.


Loving memorys, yours truly, Nova


©

Quote,

“Demon pox, oh demon pox 

Just how is it acquired? 
One must go down to the bad part of town 
Until one is very tired. 
Demon pox, oh demon pox, I had it all along— 
Not the pox, you foolish blocks, 
I mean this very song— 
For I was right, and you were wrong!" 

"Will!" Charlotte shouted over the noise, "Have you LOST YOUR MIND? CEASE THAT INFERNAL RACKET! Jem—" 
Jem, rising to his feet, clapped his hands over Will's mouth. "Do you promise to be quiet?" he hissed into his friend's ear. 
Will nodded, blue eyes blazing. Tessa was staring at him in amazement; they all were. She had seen Will many things—amused, bitter, condescending, angry, pitying—but never giddy before. 
Jem let him go. "All right, then." 
Will slid to the floor, his back against the armchair, and threw up his arms. "A demon pox on all your houses!" he announced, and yawned. 
"Oh, God, weeks of pox jokes," said Jem. "We're in for it now.” 

- Cassandra Clare, Clockwork Prince

Cover reveal of City of Lost Souls

"Then you tell me why he isn't there, because he isn't," she said, her voice finally breaking. "There's nothing up there but a lot of blood and broken glass. They're both gone, Simon. Jace is gone. . . ."

- Clary, City of Lost Souls by Cassandra Clare

Book review: Shatter Me by Tahereh Mafi

As Goodreads say;


Juliette hasn't touched anyone in exactly 264 days. 

The last time she did, it was an accident, but The Reestablishment locked her up for murder. No one knows why Juliette's touch is fatal. As long as she doesn't hurt anyone else, no one really cares. The world is too busy crumbling to pieces to pay attention to a 17-year-old girl. Diseases are destroying the population, food is hard to find, birds don't fly anymore, and the clouds are the wrong color. 

The Reestablishment said their way was the only way to fix things, so they threw Juliette in a cell. Now so many people are dead that the survivors are whispering war-- and The Reestablishment has changed its mind. Maybe Juliette is more than a tortured soul stuffed into a poisonous body. Maybe she's exactly what they need right now. 

Juliette has to make a choice: Be a weapon. Or be a warrior. 

Personal Opinion:

Some books, I have great expectation for. Like this one. I had heard wonderful things about it. At first I said to myself; "I'm not going to read this." Guess why? Paranormal books, for me, needs to have a little romance. So when I heard the Juliette's touch is, well, not pleasant I gave up. I was not going to read it, until I heard there is a love interest. Enter Adam. Adam is just a boy, normal. He's sweet, protectiv and just has a big heart. Juliette can't help but feel something for him. What, you ask. Well, read the book. You'll find out. The writing in this book is special. It's not your every-day book. Mafi writes in a way so it's clear Juliette has a thing for numbers. She paints up beautiful descriptions about things that has no value, it's just eye candy. A switch in the normal.

It wasn't fast-paced in the beginning. I didn't feel like the book druged me, like it feels in some other books. It wasn't until a breaking point that it started happening things. After that, action runs on until the unexpected end. While I was reading the book, it felt like everyone was going to betray Juliette. I was there with her. Scared for someone to grab me while I looked away, scared for someone to touch me. I actually jumped away from my sister. This was a christmas read for me, so while everyone was eating and playing cards. I sat in a chair in the corner, devoured by the cruel dystopian world Mafi had created.

4/5

“I'm oxygen and he's dying to breathe.” 

- Juliette (about Adam), Shatter Me

Book review: One Foot In The Grave by Jeaniene Frost

As Goodreads say;

You can run from the grave, but you can't hide . . .

Half-vampire Cat Crawfield is now Special Agent Cat Crawfield, working for the government to rid the world of the rogue undead. She's still using everything Bones, her sexy and dangerous ex, taught her, but when Cat is targeted for assassination, the only man who can help her is the vampire she left behind.

Being around him awakens all her emotions, from the adrenaline kick of slaying vamps side by side to the reckless passion that consumed them. But a price on her head—wanted: dead or half-alive—means her survival depends on teaming up with Bones. And no matter how hard she tries to keep things professional between them, she'll find that desire lasts forever . . . and that Bones won't let her get away again.

Personal Opinion:

This book, the second in the vampire paranormal romance series called Night Huntress wasn't as good as the first one. Belivie me, it was excellent but I didn't feel as captured in the end as I did in the first. To me, the first part of the book feels like a distant memory. Fun and upbeat. Then it got more intense. Jealousy can really bugg me, because it's a strong emotion it changes people and not often to the better. Jealousy Cat seems to hold tight, for her it often is there. Maybe because when Bones caught up to her again, she realized she was still in love with the drop-dead gorgeous vampire she left behind in hope to never see once more. He pissed her off, being the way he is. That I loved. But after the wedding scenes it got as I said before, intense. Fighting with her companions because they think Bones is a crazy killer, it was much on the defense in the middle. Maybe this makes no sense to you, but it's hard to write a review even those who hasn't read the first book can look at.

To get over the negative stuff; But then. The most amazing thing as I'm sure you've all heard of. Chapter 32. All children look away, I can say that and you'll understand. Bones, you amaze us with the skills you hold only in your tongue. I can still imagine the screams that made Cat unable to speak. You rock our world. As the first book, it has a wonderful tempo. Lots of action, more in this one I think. PG-15? You could say that. I recommend you read this series, you wont regret it.

4.5/5

Juan gave Bones the most admiring look he’d bestowed on him yet. “You talked her into going without panties all these years? Madre de Dios, now that’s impressive. I could learn a great deal from you, amigo.” 
― Juan (to Bones), One Foot in the Grave

Quote,

“Sometimes we have thoughts that even we don't understand. Thoughts that aren't even true—that aren't really how we feel—but they're running through our heads anyway because they're interesting to think about.” 

 - Jay Asher, Thirteen Reasons Why

Stained Glass by Anya Violetta

As Goodread say;


Eighteen-year-old Clio Grey is an orphan and a devout Catholic. That's why she can't stand Oliver Martin. Raised in the same orphanage, Oliver possesses mysterious powers, which Clio believes are the work of the devil. During their final year of school, Clio finds herself caught in a tumultuous love triangle, questioning her beliefs and embarking on a rollercoaster journey to solve the mystery of their powers and their true identities. In doing so, Clio and Oliver find themselves on opposing sides of a war that has been raging for centuries. 

The first of a trilogy, Stained Glass is the debut novel of the young and exciting new author, Anya Violetta.

I wanted to read this book every since I started speedreading all of Anya's fanfiction. The only problem is that it's not really a well known book so it's kind of hard to get a hold of. It bet it will come to the point where I'll ship it to Sweden from the U.S. Of course I have to read it, because Anya writes with a flow I like. And she's not predictable, so I will be suprised most of the time reading this book. There's where I'm sure, I will read this book. Wish me luck with getting it!

Book review: Halfway To The Grave by Jeaniene Frost

As Goodreads say;

Half-vampire Catherine Crawfield is going after the undead with a vengeance, hoping that one of these deadbeats is her father—the one responsible for ruining her mother's life. Then she's captured by Bones, a vampire bounty hunter, and is forced into an unholy partnership.

In exchange for finding her father, Cat agrees to train with the sexy night stalker until her battle reflexes are as sharp as his fangs. She's amazed she doesn't end up as his dinner—are there actually good vampires? Pretty soon Bones will have her convinced that being half-dead doesn't have to be all bad. But before she can enjoy her newfound status as kick-ass demon hunter, Cat and Bones are pursued by a group of killers. Now Cat will have to choose a side . . . and Bones is turning out to be as tempting as any man with a heartbeat.

Personal Opinion:

This is one of my favorite new series. I fell in love with the male main character the second the heroine, Cat, laid her eyes on him. Bones is unlike most other love interests. He grabs a hold of the reader and doesn't let go until the reader wants him to hold on tighter. It was the same for me. I couldn't help but fall for him. The same I can say about Cat. I usally don't like female lead characters because I can help but become annoyed with the chocies they make. Cat I find refreshing. Her sense in humor is wonderful and her witty conversations with Bones is a main reason I love this book. Bones also has this shameless way of speaking, I can't not love it.

As for the story and Jeaniene's writing, she has become one of my favorite writers. It's fun, fast-paced and full of action. Not to give away spoilers but it had me sitting on the egde of my chair, laughing my a** off, almost brusting into tears and waiting for the next bomd to drop. I would recommend it to anyone who loves a great book with a touch of dirty scenes.

To criticize a little, I found that when I put the book down I wasn't compelled to take it up again. I can't say why, just something I noticed. But still, I'm so glad I did finish it. Amazing.


5/5

It easily comes down to one thing with me..

Books. I've lived all my life, reading and writing. Eager to finish my own book this year and still get time to chat with the Book Boyfriend lovers I've gotten to know on Goodreads.com my plate is really full. This while still going to school, riding and taking care of what needs to be done. This week I'm going to finish Amaranth by Rachael Wade.

As Goodreads say;

An Adult Paranormal Fantasy Romance. 

Knowledge changes everything… 

Hoodoo-influenced Southern Louisiana seems like the perfect place for Camille to escape her abusive past and dysfunctional family. She doesn’t expect to fall in love with the handsome Gavin Devereaux and plummet into the world of Amaranth, a place of exile for reformed vampires. 

Wrestling to escape a deadly ex-boyfriend while giving Gavin a chance, Camille is confronted with decisions that threaten not only her life, but the lives of her inhuman friends she has come to love. Entangled in her friends’ quest for freedom, she dives into their realm and faces the threats of Amaranth’s ruler—the mother of all vampires—and her own inner demons. 

Now Camille must decide whether she will derail her life and make the ultimate sacrifice for the monsters that interrupted her bumpy path back to sanity—what she still wants so desperately—or escape with Gavin before it’s too late for both of them.


Sounds interesting? Maybe you should give it a try. Review comes later.